Ms. Molly Moll

As nerdy as this article is going to sound, I really do want to write it just to say I have it. If I ever have a decent amount of readers I hope that they read this and leave informed.

I want to throw in the usual disclaimer before I start. I do not endorse drugs. I am not a drug dealer. I am not a drug addict. I simply want to write this to bring awareness to people about a very common rave drug.

My first ever M trip happened somewhere around May 2013, so just a few months back, really. My biggest inspiration about writing this is that when I first started, I had no idea what to look for in the drug. Friends gave it to me and because I trusted them, it was OK. Looking back I've never had a bad experience with M but as naive as I was, the chances of me overdosing or taking sketchy drugs without knowing it was high. So here are some facts along with some personal experience that will hopefully clarify questions and concerns that you might have should you be ill-informed about the drug.

MDMA & Ecstasy: Erowid for some reason refers to MDMA and Ecstasy as the same thing, which to be honest bothers me a little. It's scary to think that people could think of M and E as the same thing. For those of you who don't know, MDMA is the active component in Ecstasy, however E pills are usually laced with what could be a lot of things. I had a friend who popped a few pills of E a few weekends ago and ended up really twitchy and sketchy. Without testing it, it's safe to assume there was most likely some meth laced in that pill. Now, for myself personally I would hate not knowing what I'm taking, that's why I stick to M instead of E. The beauty with M is that if you get the good, clean shit, it's a consistent, clear high that doesn't make you completely fucked up and dysfunctional.

So, how do I know what I'm taking is good?

Honestly? There is no 100% certainty that what you're taking is pure MDMA. In fact, the odds of it being 100% pure are very slim. But there are obvious things to look for that could save you some trouble:

- Dark, moderately sized rocks
- No powder - this is just from personal experience but that shit is sketchy, and the high sucks.
- No pills - also from personal experience and straight up common sense. You don't know what they can put in pills. It's like some random stranger gives you a drink in a bar without knowing where it came from.
- This might sound ridiculous because who knows if it even fucking matters, but trust who you're getting your M from. Try to plan your pick-up in advance to avoid buying from some creep at the club, he doesn't care about you.

Dosage: Dosage depends entirely on the person taking it, their weight, what they've eaten that day and when, their tolerance, etc. But rule of thumbs if you've never done it before is 0.1-0.15g (1 point to 1.5 point). The more often you drop, the more you'll eventually need. The body builds a tolerance for this shit very quickly unfortunately. I find leaving 2-3 weeks between trips helps keeping your tolerance at bay. You also get a better, more solid high if you give your body ample time to recover.

Redosing: So here's the problem. Raves can be 12+ hours depending. The plateau of an M trip (the most intense part of the high) only lasts 1-3 hours maximum. Hence why most ravers tend to drop 2-3+ times during a rave. Personally, I've never dropped more than twice in a night. I usually start with 0.1-0.15 and drop another 0.1 2-3 hours later. Be prepared to feel drained the next day if you plan on dropping more than once. It's worth noting that dropping multiple times in a night is actually dangerous as well. MDMA raises the serotonin levels in your body/brain, causing your body to overheat. If you keep dropping and never let your body come back to a healthy temperature, you could be playing with fire. Leaving 3-4 hours between drops is usually a good idea. It's also important to know that when doing M, there is usually an overwhelming feeling to want to drop again as soon as you come down, so it's always a good idea to go into a trip being aware of that and what it could cause.

Hydration: MDMA really messes with your hydration levels. It dehydrates your body quite well, and also lowers the sodium levels in your body. Those two together can be a bad mix combined with overheating if you don't hydrate yourself properly. Now, a lot of people seem to think that drinking an obscene amount of water is the right thing to do during an M trip. They couldn't be more wrong. Over hydration while on MDMA can actually be fatal. Since your sodium levels are decreased, drinking a lot of water will actually dilute the sodium left in your body and make you sick. My friend Heather told me when I first started experimenting with M that I should go by one rule when it comes to drinking water "small sips, only when you need them". She's right. However, since raves are so warm and dehydration is imminent, it's easy to chug down a bottle of water. But the more you drink, the sicker you'll feel.

Coming up: The come up varies for everybody. When I first started doing M I had very little to no anxiety while coming up. Now I can feel a slight tightness in my chest from being anxious when I come up. It doesn't last very long (usually 15-20 minutes) but I find being around people who are comfortable helps. If you feel overly anxious, leaving the vicinity and getting some air usually really helps. It's easy to get lost in body language when at a show or a rave, so make sure you have some kind of code word or sign with your friends that they'll understand if something is wrong. I know it sounds dorky, but safety first, right?

Coming down: Again depending on the person, the come down can be positive for some people or can be a little rough. M "hangovers" can last up to a week in some cases. For myself, I usually feel a little bit on edge the next day, and it can take up to a few days after for my serotonin levels to get back up. It's normal to feel a little down for a few days after your trip since you just sent your serotonin levels through the roof and now your brain is working on getting them back to par. Be aware of the fact that you might feel a little on the grey side for a few days so you don't wonder what's wrong with you and mistake it for depression. If you're still feeling down after 4-5 days you might want to talk to someone about it.

My routine for the day after:
- Take a lukewarm shower the day after - it's not recommended to take a shower while you're still high.
- Get yourself a protein bar and a few sports drinks - your appetite will probably be almost gone the next day, so I find protein bars are easy to eat and filling enough to settle your stomach. Sports drinks are also fantastic because they contain sodium, which after doing M, your body will be lacking. Since they contain sodium, the drinks will rehydrate you and make you feel better.
- Consider some 5HTP - 5HTP is a natural compound already produced in the body that promotes serotonin production. While it's not recommended to do while high, it can really help with the emotional comedown the next day. You can find it in pharmacies and health food stores almost everywhere. If you have any health issues, make sure to read up on 5HTP or asking your pharmacist about it before taking it.

I hope this little summary can be useful for some of you thinking about doing MDMA for the first time, or maybe just inform you of things you didn't know. Regardless, if you have any questions at all, please feel free to send me a message. And never be afraid to ask questions about drugs you're about to take. It's better to know what you're putting into your body then being totally clueless. If people don't give you a straight answer and just tell you to trust them, you probably shouldnt. Awareness is key.

Have a good week everyone!



xoxo, MC

P.S, 10 days until Bingo Players ahhhh!!

PLUR: words to live by

Peace, love, unity and respect. Kandi. PLUR. I will seriously never forget the first time I was given kandi via proper PLUR tradition. I was standing in line to get into a Nicky Romero show, and this pretty blonde (@tysmartin on Instagram) having the time of her life in line starts talking to me. All of a sudden, she makes a peace sign with her hand and presses it against mine, expecting me to do the same.

Being a newborn to this whole electronic music culture, I had no clue what to do. She smiled at me and carefully instructed me on what to do before linking my hand with hers and transferring the kandi from her wrist to mine.

I swear to god I had the biggest smile on my face in that moment. Although I totally fucked up the PLUR motion out of sheer oblivion, I was ecstatic about what had just happened. She gave me the tightest hug then proceeded to continue into the growing lineup, into the sea of eager ravers.

My friend Heather looks at me with an "aw you little noob, that's so cute" smile, happy to see I had enjoyed my very first kandi exchange. Then it hit me. PLUR. Holy fuck, I get it now. There's a name to that feeling of acceptance, compassion and respect I had been feeling during my recent raving experiences.

Before my boyfriend Scott passed away in January 2013, he used to say "those who feel it know it" all the time. For the longest time I didn't get it. Feel what? Know what? I understand now that it applies to any feeling one is passionate about. Everybody has something they could associate that saying to. Let's relate it to PLUR. Feel peace, know peace. Feel love, know love. And so on. When you realize that you truly do feel, and as a result know, those things, it is an absolutely magical feeling.

The beauty about music in general, and raves specifically, is that they give everyday people like myself a chance to go into an environment where most people have the same loving, respectful and positive attitude. As a result, people feel at peace, even if just for a few hours. Then comes the feeling of unity, knowing everybody dancing around you want nothing more than good vibes. The world is such a fucked up, scary place, that I think we all owe it to ourselves to let music take us on a vacation from the daily grind.

A few days after receiving my first kandi, I headed over to wal-mart to get some string and some beads. I enjoyed the kandi exchange so much I wanted to make my own bracelets and give them out to people. I made one that said "one love" one that said "yolo" (it was partly a joke I swear) and a few others. I was at an Adrian Lux show a few weeks ago, eager to rave and brought along some kandi. I first gave one out to this guy I met outside while having a cigarette, and later gave one to his friend on the dance floor. I took two PLUR v-cards that night and felt over the moon about it. I actually hung out and danced with them for the rest of the night and had a blast. Kandi is honestly the best way to meet random strangers. I'm now looking forward to raving with them at the Bingo Players show coming up in a few weeks (one of them is totally cute too). Who knew?

With all of that said, PLUR has changed my life, and it's obviously changed a lot of people too. I've met a lot of fellow ravers at shows that use raves as motivation to keep going through the daily bullshit. For me, it's gotten me out of a really dark place in my life and brought light to the end of the tunnel. I kick ass at school during the week, and on the weekends I rave and meet new people. What in the world could possibly be better than that? There are no words to describe the feeling of fulfillment you get after coming back from a show and leaving it all on the dance floor. PLUR. One love.



Also, before I leave you, here's what I'm listening to this week:







have a good long weekend everybody! never stop dancing <3



xoxo MC

I guess I'll start with an introduction of who I am and why I've decided to start this.

My name is MC, I'm 21 years old, and I'm just an ordinary girl from my country's capital of Ottawa, Canada. Life to me has always been as normal as it could get. I grew up in a typical french-canadian family, graduated high school and made my way to college in 2009. Long story short, I lived a very textbook life until the day that changed my life, January 28, 2013.

A few months after turning 21, I lost my boyfriend and best friend of 8 years to a heroin overdose. Now, there's a very long and complicated story that led to this, however this blog isn't about the dramatic story that led me to where I am today, but it's worth saying that it changed me and my outlook on life.

Long story short, the first 5 months after Scott's passing were probably the darkest and hardest months of my life. Needless to say, being a social butterfly and coming from a very large family, I had tremendous support from family and friends, and I feel so blessed every day for the amount of love that surrounded me through that time in my life. What I'm really thankful for, though, is for my friend Heather who I had only met a few months prior, who first introduced me to electronic music. I loved the sound, and with time I really started appreciating the builds and the drops and everything else in between.

In September, I attended my very first rave in Toronto at a 2-day event called Labour of Love. I saw Sander van Doorn, W&W, Showtek, Tommy Trash, Dannic, Hardwell, Dyro and many more. Not bad for my first rave experience, right? Well, sure enough, I was hooked. After coming home from Toronto I started researching music and my knowledge and especially appreciation for electronic music reached a new level. I went to shows at almost every chance I got.

The rush I got from going to shows and raves was absolutely euphoric. Anybody that's had the experience knows what I'm talking about. Before I go on with my story, though, I want to clarify that by no means am I encouraging or endorsing drug use of any kind. The thing is with drugs is that there's a very fine line between right and wrong. It's such a slippery slope and caution is definitely a must for anybody looking at experimenting or enhancing an experience with any type of drug.

So let's talk about the lady of the hour. Molly. MDMA. M. She's absolutely everywhere. It's becoming so common and so accepted amongst the rave and electronic dance music community that people have started wearing shirts and glasses that straight up say "Where's Molly?". I've done M. Many times. It's quite the high and honestly, it's given me life-changing nights, experiences and moments specifically. That being said, with my past experience with people in my life struggling with serious addiction, I'm very conscious about the risks and what can happen.

So, cool story bro, you like electronic music and raves and you've done drugs. Big deal right? Well, believe it or not I haven't started this blog to talk about myself. I've started this blog because I've developed an overwhelming amount of respect for the core values of the rave and electronic music community. While some people use raves as an excuse to get fucked up and try to pick up vulnerable chicks, if you meet a true, purist and respectful raving enthusiast, you will realize quickly that the message behind all of this is truly inspiring and humbling. PLUR. Peace, Love, Unity and Respect. Those four words are huge amongst ravers but at the end of the day, words are just words. But when the moment hits that you think "holy shit, these really are words to live by", it really does change you.

Ravers and enthusiasts that really believe in the PLUR movement go to raves for an emotional and spiritual experience. For myself, I go to raves and shows and drop M to unwind from the every day stress, meet people and simply become a better person. Going to raves, enhanced by an educated choice to do MDMA, truly has given me a positive outlook on life and has given me so much more respect for people at raves, and outside the clubs. Because at the end of the day, raver or not, what most people want is to have a happy, fulfilled and peaceful life.

Alright, so where am I going with this? Am I trying to get the entire planet to go to raves and be happy? World peace through electronic music? No. The point I'm trying to get to here, is that electronic music and raves combined can really change people if done right, with the right intentions. I've grown so infatuated with the PLUR movement and the rave experience that I really want to pass on my experience and my knowledge to others, who without even knowing it, might be totally clueless when it comes to raving and more importantly, doing drugs.

You hear about all these crazy stories about young adults dying at raves and electronic music festivals. Most people will read the headline and stop there. I guess they think that "19 year-old girl dies at Electric Zoo" says it all and they already know the story. But if you keep reading and read the whole story, you'll understand that there is always an avoidable reason for why these things happen. It all comes down to lack of education. Quite frankly, I think it's extremely disheartening that people just like me, on the pursuit of an euphoric experience, have to die because they don't know what they're doing and don't know any better.

You know, when you're in high school, you have that stupid sex & health class, where they're supposed to teach you about safe sex and drugs. Well, that class usually ends up being a semester long of repeating the same two things: "no sex till marriage, and don't do drugs." What the fuck. "Don't do drugs." Really? You think that's going to motivate teenagers to stay entirely sober until the day they die? As much as this angers me, I know it's unrealistic to think that the educational system will ever truly educate kids about drugs and what they do. I would be willing to bet my life, that if teenagers were properly educated about drugs, there would be far less addiction and overdosing issues.

That's where I come in. I want to educate people on how to do this shit safely and properly, because if done responsibly, the results can be life-changing. Now, since this is going to be an EDM blog, and since I have no experience with anything but MDMA, marijuana and alcohol, I will only be writing about the latter. I want this to be a resource where people can come have a short read and leave informed and more confident about their choice on how they want to experience their raves. If I can inform just ONE person on how to get the most out of a trip to planet euphoria, and even possibly save them from crashing their shuttle into a wormhole on their way up, I'm happy. Call me a spaceman.

I would like to add, before I continue, that by no means are drugs necessary for the enjoyment of music. I've been to shows entirely sober and have thoroughly enjoyed the experience as well. Known DJs and electronic music artists have reached out to their fans time and time again to discourage them from doing drugs. In a way, I agree, and in a perfect world, drugs wouldn't exist, but realistically, MDMA and ecstasy are so common now at raves, that I would rather people know what they're doing instead of being completely in the dark about it. Because at the end of the day, people are going to do this anyways, it's inevitable. I hope that people can appreciate that.

Every few days I will be posting threads covering different issues: addiction, dosage, psychology, chemistry and whatever else seems like a good, significant idea to write about. To add some flavor, I will also be posting threads on EDM news and events, new tracks, up and coming DJs and more importantly, stories and experiences from other ravers from different parts of this crazy blue globe we live on.

Have a story to tell? Suggestions? Comments? Pictures? Tips? Need some advice? Please feel free to message me! Like the concept of this blog? Sound off in the comments below!

Oh, and before I leave you, here's a nice snapshot of myself and my friend Kayleigh (@kaylieghamber on Instagram) at Labour of Love 2013, in Toronto and one of us from last night, enjoying a fulfilling trip (yes, I'm a little bit sketchy from last night as I'm writing this)



Thanks for reading!

xoxo, MC (@mcdrizzey on Instagram)